Trunk in the Attic, by Valentina
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There is a trunk in the attic
with my past in it. Not all my past: I moved around a lot when I was young.
Still, therein lies a cornucopia of experiences, now so distantly removed from
my current life, they seem like those of another person.
There is the first cat story I
wrote, in fourth grade, about my tabby Two and a far-off land where everyone
lived in houses with diamond walls.
There is a sketchbook from my
days in Chicago, pages of dark scribble and slashing lines depicting inner
city buildings in the shadow of 1968.
There is a photo album from when
I was a hippie living on the farm. In some of them I am naked, innocently
swimming in a country lake. In some, I’m ensconced with other bell-bottomed,
bead-bedecked flower children. In one, I’m playing pool.
Other things have accumulated in
that magic trunk as well. A flotsom of greeting cards, letters, notes with a loved one’s
name penned longhand nest at the dusty bottom. Some of those loved ones— too many—have been lost along
the way.
There used to be diaries in the trunk, but
several years ago I shredded them, consigning my youthful craziness to the ash pile.
At the time I felt release— no longer bound by my indiscretions. As a writer, I
suppose I should regret the loss, but I don’t. I did keep the poems and drawings; the rest was so much hooey.
I think about the trunk from
time to time. I’d like to post the pool player photo on Facebook; I’d like to
read a birthday card from my grandmother; I’d like to check out the cat story,
see if it’s as great as I remember. It’s probably not, but as long as it stays
buried in the trunk, I can pretend.
The trunk remains closed. A
decade ago, workers redid the attic beams, and in their effort, stacked
my trunk underneath a small mountain of other clutter. Every so often, I look
at it, gage the amount of work it would take to dig it out, and go away again.
It’s on the list, among other jobs to be
done... but not in winter because the attic is too cold and not in summer because
it’s stifling hot. I can’t do it alone because some of the items are heavy and
awkward, yet I don’t want anyone to do it with me. Besides I have no place to put it
once I get it out. The dust makes me sneeze.
Someday I’ll want the trunk badly enough
to overcome the obstacles. Until then, I can remember. Schrödinger’s trunk: its nostalgic
contents can be whatever I decide.
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reading!
I really enjoyed reading this.x
ReplyDeleteThank you, Christine. Hopefully it brought back some pleasant memories.
DeleteI hope sometime soon you decide to get that trunk and go through all those memories in it. You might just find something you've forgotten about and find inspiration for another cozy cat mystery.
ReplyDeleteI love the titles for your stories. They are so cute.
I wish you all the best, Mollie.
Thank ou, Sarah. Now that I've written about the trunk, I'm going to have to get at it!
DeleteAn apt metaphor for what helps drive our creativity.
ReplyDeleteGood point, Bernadette, but entirely subconscious. I'll have to think about that one.
DeleteSchrödinger’s trunk... As Bernadette wrote, it is a perfect metaphor for what is probably best left as is when it comes to our memories and memorabilia we've tucked away. If you don't mind, I may quote a small portion of your article in an upcoming blog post. If I do, I will certainly link back to your article. Thank you for such a though-provoking read.
ReplyDeleteOf course you may quote, and thank you for asking.
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ReplyDeletethe past is something beautiful that is trapped,
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