The
term “hitting the wall” is most often used by runners to describe a feeling of sudden
fatigue and/or loss of energy making it difficult, if not impossible to finish
their race. However, runners aren’t the only ones that experience the feeling
of not being able to go on. I “hit the wall” writing-wise at the end of
September 2016.
It
all began with working on the revisions to Dances
with Werewolves, the second book in my Kudzu Korners series. (The first
book, Dial V for Vampire, was
published by Fire Star Press in August 2016.) I love my world of Kudzu Korners
and all of the books that I have roughly plotted out in my head. However, the
more I worked on my revisions, the worst things got. My story wasn’t flowing – it
was choppy and I wasn’t happy with it. I realized that, in order to fix the
problems, my book basically needs a complete rewrite. Whereas the basic plot
will remain the same, the story is currently told from the hero’s point of
view; it will flow better if told from the heroine’s point of view. This
realization really took the wind out of my sails and, rather than deal with the
situation head-on, I began avoiding it.
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Things
just went downhill from there. As a writer, the world of social media is a big
part of my life. It was not a fun world to be a part of for most of last year
due to the presidential election. No one other than God and my husband know how
I vote and I avoid all political discussions online. As you probably already
know, the 2016 election was highly divisive. (I know someone whose own daughter
stopped speaking to her because she disagreed with who her mother voted for. Seriously?)
I consider myself to be a relatively optimistic person and for months I had
been patting myself on the back about not letting all of the negativity steal
my joy. Well, about the time my story blew up, my joy disappeared as well. The
constant online negativity became an emotional drain. I lost a lot of respect
for people that I consider friends because of their judgmental comments toward
anyone who dared to think differently. Sadly, the election did not end the
hostility but at least the levels of hysteria are no longer in the
stratosphere. (It probably helps that I no longer follow individuals who spew
nothing but anger and negativity toward others.)
November
and December were tough emotionally due to the death of my father earlier this
year (and my mother moving away to live with my sister). While I came through
my daddy’s birthday and the holidays relatively well, it was period that was also
seasoned with its share of sadness.
I’m
a book cover junkie and I have bought covers for books that I haven’t even
written yet. I use the covers as the wallpaper on my laptop; seeing them makes
me smile and keeps me motivated. Once of the most frightening events during
this whole I’ve-fallen-and-I-can’t-get-up season was when I was using my laptop
and one of my beloved book covers came up and I had no reaction to it. Zero.
Even worse, I couldn’t remember what the story was about or the main character’s
names. That really, really scared me.
However,
I’m pleased to announce that the tide has finally turned. My characters are
talking to me again and I’m slowly regaining my joy. I write humorous stories
about people falling in love and I think our world needs more humor; I honestly
believe that it is one of the reasons I was put here. So, it’s time to pick
myself up, dust myself off, and get back to the joy of writing.
Here’s
to a new hope for a new year! *raises hot cocoa in toast*
How
have you dealt with the difficult seasons of your life?
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I am very familiar with hitting the wall, writer's block, and resisting writing a story because I have done it from time to time myself. So many things can distract us from writing. Sometimes we just need to step back from a WIP and rethink it. one of my best selling books came from a period of writer's block in which, even though I had my story plotted out, I just couldn't make myself write it.
ReplyDeleteThe media seems to love spreading negativity, doubt, and angst whenever they can to gain audience attention. Sometimes it helps me to just stop watching the news and carry on with my life as if everything was just peachy keen regardless.
I'm glad you were able to triumph over your dilemma and move forward again.
I wish you all the best in this new year, Isabella.
Thank you, Sarah. I appreciate you taking the time to comment. It's always nice to know that I'm not alone with my writerly struggles.
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